One solitary smile
rests upon your face,
scarring my memories of your dark complexion.
A grin,
bright,
luminous,
holding all of the joy;
the bliss
that once rested upon my heart.
One solitary smile
which once made light of heavy days,
now haunts my memories of you.
Start fresh
canvas anew
a block of untouched marble.
Sitting
waiting for the first mark
on her immaculate surface.
She anticipates the scoring,
the sculpting,
the molding.
Every new mark,
all excess shed,
a new masterpiece comes into vision.
She was once a new, untouched soul;
now she is molded,
a beautiful sculpted work of art,
carved by time and careful hands.
She is a sculpture,
magnificent and bold,
carved by love,
scorn,
and experience.
Every moment of everyday,
longing for your tender touch,
craving one soft kiss.
Every moment of every hour,
waiting for your mellow voice,
yearning for your kind words.
Every moment of every minute,
you linger in my mind,
putting a smile on my face.
I long for your love,
as it makes my heart beat
every moment of my life.
Screaming.
Crying.
Emptying my lungs.
No one hears me.
Shaking.
Trembling.
Shuddering at every light breeze.
No one comforts me.
Secluded.
Isolated.
Taken apart from the rest.
No one lends a hand.
Fading.
Diminishing.
Disappearing like dust in the wind.
No one saves me.
Wind whispers through the bare, dying branches,
uttering faint lullabies of past memories.
All of their words,
all of the times we once were
sailing away with dead,
lifeless leaves.
Limp feelings,
emotionless thoughts now
run its course through my veins,
rooting itself in my soulless cell.
Fond memories,
once a seemingly daily reality,
now a missed pastime,
continue to mutter through the brittle limbs.
A strong trunk ratted with holes,
whistles,
calling me to its beautiful body.
I lay my body down
weak
tired
forgotten
under its coverless shelter.
My body becomes weathered,
a part of this masterpiece
which carries my me
Small flickering in my chest,
a butterfly trapped in my chest,
fluttering her wings at rapid speed,
trying to remind me of its admirable presence.
Her small body wriggles its way to my heart,
fluttering away
like she can escape my soul.
But she can't,
she remains.
She stays there forever,
for every time I think of you,
my heart begins to flutter.
Play your silly little game with me,
play your cards.
Cards dealt with such negligence,
as you bluff using 'imperial' wit.
I don't take your bait,
So I wait,
I wait.
I call your 'smooth' bluff,
win this hand,
to beat your silly little game.
All in.
My hand a three of a kind.
I match you,
all goes in,
calling your sly little bluff.
Royal flush,
you flash your hand.
Take all that I ever worked for,
my happiness and joy,
that was rightfully mine.
Your silly little game,
not so silly
anymore .
Something so small,
it can't fend for itself.
Meek,
powerless,
unable to control.
A helpless creature,
dependent on the action of its caretaker.
A caretaker whom does not take care
of the unborn soul hidden within her.
She is small
unable to carry
the mystery which resides in her.
Withering away inside her,
the being slowly disappears,
her mother not even aware of her existence.
This creature,
so weak and needy
killed by an unknowing mother
trying to forget her torturous past.
Start fresh
canvas anew
a block of untouched marble.
Sitting
waiting for the first mark
on her immaculate surface.
She anticipates the scoring,
the sculpting,
the molding.
Every new mark,
all excess shed,
a new masterpiece comes into vision.
She was once a new, untouched soul;
now she is molded,
a beautiful sculpted work of art,
carved by time and careful hands.
She is a sculpture,
magnificent and bold,
carved by love,
scorn,
and experience.
One solitary smile
rests upon your face,
scarring my memories of your dark complexion.
A grin,
bright,
luminous,
holding all of the joy;
the bliss
that once rested upon my heart.
One solitary smile
which once made light of heavy days,
now haunts my memories of you.
A child,
A small toddler questions her mother.
Why mommy?
Her mother answers,
because I said so, love.
The child simply nods,
waddling away.
As the child grows,
she needs a bit more,
an explanation.
Why momma?
Her mother answers,
because it was wrong, dear.
The daughter scrunches her face,
yet, she seems satisfied.
The child is now older,
a teenager,
hoping for more reason.
Why mother?
Her mother answers, very sternly,
Because what you've done could have gotten you killed,
and you are being punished.
Please do not do it again.
The daughter stomps up the stairs.
She yells,
I hate you,
slamming her door
shaking the ho
Light begins to dwindle,
slowly receding beyond the horizon.
Colors blanketing the sky diminishes,
fading into black.
You pull me closer,
shielding me from the unknown darkness
that is holding our gaze.
Our song plays in the distance,
gently wrapping us in its beautiful melody.
Stars begin to show their shining faces,
beginning to sparkle,
a vast diamond mine
stars glimmering through the black depths of the night sky.
Our song continues to float through the air,
as you lift me into your arms,
we begin to dance.
Your fingers interlacing mine,
I squeeze your hand tighter
gazing deep into your blue eyes.
Holding me in your a
One foot in front of the other,
one step at a time,
regaining your balance with every stride,
growing more confident each time,
to be able to walk.
Opening your mouth,
mouthing terms,
producing a sound that has meaning,
forming words that make them smile,
to be able to speak.
Opening a book,
staring at a line,
comprehending the sentences,
reciting the story with beautiful cadence,
to be able to read.
Holding his hand,
lips touching,
hearts beating in harmony,
moving with the rhythms of his body,
to be able to love him.
That last step I take,
off that mountainous ridge,
my doubts seem to appear vivid.
Then all in a moments time,
wisped away,
like a feather in the breeze.
I'm falling.
My body goes limp.
I watch the sky,
opening up before my eyes.
I watch my past,
flying by,
with it's many wondrous colors.
I watch my life slipping away,
a stream of water through a drain.
I'm in freefall.
My thoughts are free,
falling into the deep unknown,
waiting for an end.
The unfamiliar feeling of safety,
running it's way through my veins,
cradling my soul,
and putting my mind at ease.
This is a sure thing,
one thing that is certain,
no way of hal
A field of flowers,
beauty lying from root to petal.
Lush green stem and leaves,
with magnificent blossoms,
full of an array of colors.
So many colors,
but one out-shining the rest.
Red,
incredibly red.
A rose,
placed ever so carelessly in a field,
yet making it complete.
A rose standing out in a field,
an almost indescribable splendor.
Soft, delicate.
Untouchable,
covered in thorns.
Protection,
not to allow scarring to its magnificence,
never to be touched by a soul.
Mysterious beauty.
My name is Ashley I was born in February. Drawing is something I like to do, but am not very good at. Along with drawing, my greater passion is writing. I've been writing a lot lately XD. I'm a very physically active person, and love to play any sport, run and bike. I can be shy, and I don't really like myself as a person. But if you like to get to know me... Feel free! : )
Current Residence: New York deviantWEAR sizing preference: small Favourite genre of music: Rock, Metal Favourite style of art: pencil drawings, poetry MP3 player of choice: Ipod Skin of choice: anyone but my own Personal Quote: write your story.. or no one will..
Start of summer in two weeks!
But I will be lifeguarding and coaching 40 hours a week :P
The only break I have off is a long weekend of camping with my boyfriend and friends.
Very excited to catch up on my writing, drawing and reading!
Summer '12 :)
After such a long time where I felt like a stranger to the people around me, the places I'd go and the things I'd do, I finally came to a place of realization. I've realized that I belong with my friends, in my little niche which makes me feel content, a match safe inside it's little matchbox. I've learned so much about myself in the past few months. One; life is hard, but ease come with time. Two; my friends and family are and will always be there, no matter how much I feel like they aren't. And three; love is difficult, even with the right person, because you never know how things will end up....
All I can say now is that happiness lie
I can't wait to be 18! So excited to move out, and then goo to college :) and for the tattoos I'm gonna get :)
Pretty much the only thing that's keeping me going right now... :D